2011 to 2012. It used to mean so much to me, what with the list of resolutions I would come up with and such zest to start a new year altogether. But now,it's just a change in those figures. 2011 + 1 = 2012. I have given up on resolutions (well,sort of). And waking up to 01.01.2012 would just mean to be thankful to wake up to a fresh new day.

So,resolutions aside,here goes.

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable Sunday of the year,I'd say...Sunday afternoon Jam. The ONE day trip to KL just to catch Hujan at Mist Club Bangsar. I've never regretted that decision,never. Hujan boys, thank you for being so awesome <3.

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable vacation of the year,I'd say...Jelajah Indonesia Bali Bandung Jakarta,just the 4 of us ladies. Possibly the best vacation. The undescribable,best. yes.

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable concert of the year,I'd say...Avril Lavigne's Black Star Tour (ask my cousin how crazy I went singing to ALL her songs. i might've scared the people around me too lol. Anyway, I bumped into AG after the concert hehehehehehe happiest girl that night :D)

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable purchase of the year,I'd say...Ukulele. My current bestfriend.

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable summer job of the year,I'd say...Harris Bookstore. Worked for a month or so but the people there are really nice & fun to work with! It made me not mind the distance from home & the juggling between school camp and work. Misses!

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable media experience of the year,I'd say...SATU FAMILI 2! Eliminated or not,we have grown so attached to some teams who are really worth remembering! and all the fun & madness...boy,i do miss them despite the swearing & all! the best experience i can ask for

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable event organized this year,I'd say...Ilsa Tari's Contengan Hidup. My first as an exco. mistakes done but definitely,i have learnt a lot. i had taken in all the positivities and that's what matters. it made me love my SyaCube more.

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable activity experienced this year,I'd say... Scuba diving. Water sports ftw! i want more!

If you ask me what's my favourite/most memorable book read this year,I'd say...Khalid Hosseini's A Thousand Splendid Suns. It's really such an interesting and enlightening read in many possible ways!

If you ask me what's my biggest regret of the year,I'd say...there was once when i had gotten into a huge tiff with mother and it got really ugly. it was bad. very bad. *erase from memory

If you ask me who's the person I'd like to meet & eventually did this year,I'd say...Anuar Zain!!!!! OH MY ALLAH I ACTUALLY SHOOK HIS HANDS AND HUGGED HIM AND AND HE WINKED! Can't forget how he winked at me lololol. I can;t help but smile to myself (may appear retarded but who cares) every single time i replay that moment. Never mind that I wasn't supposed to ask for his autograph during the phototaking and got sarcastic remarks from the hosts but who cares,do you know how long i've been wanting to meet him?! dyou know if i'll live to get another chance to meet him? ok not angry just annoyed when i think back haha. but this,is definitely memorable to the power of inifinity!

If you ask me what's the one thing I wished I could change in the year,I'd say...ability to manage time efficiently. in short,procrastination kills. period.

If you ask me who's the person who has inspired me this year,I'd say...Fynn Jamal.

This sums up my pretty hectic and messy year. I have always been thankful and grateful for what is blessed upon to me, despite the many setbacks. Yes I admit sometimes I forget to thank Him just because He doesn't grant my prayers but I guess...He has his reasons & I shouldn't be questioning why. There are reasons why things happen.

I have also always wished to be a better person year after year but in reality it is much harder to be better. Really.

And lastly, at 20,I'm still single. (what's your motive AJ,lol) But really. WHERE ARE THE NICE GUYS IN THIS WORLD! (padahal....okay whatever. shut up. who am i to talk about love haha i'm a joke.)

Anyway I really feel like travelling the whole world and never come back to this tiny little island. Then again........

TOO AMBITIOUS.

I feel suffocated here. No education,you're doomed. And it's not something that I excel in. I have never been an outstanding scholar,or student for that matter. And as much as I thought I'd like to be,I don't think that would ever happen.

I just want to end up doing something I really love. Tired of always being not good enough.

LIFE IS TOUGH.

With that,have a blessed 2012 everyone! Never lose hope! Have faith,you'll never know what God has planned for you!

Lots of love.

hugs and kisses*

HI FRIENDS! I don't know how many of you are reading this but in case you happen to drop by (of which i think the probability will be 0.0000001)

DO COME DOWN TO WATCH ILSA TARI PERFORM THIS OCTOBER 1,2011. 8PM AT UNIVERSITY CULTURAL CENTRE HALL.

It's a show not to be missed,I tell you! SO HURRY HURRY HURRY HURRY GET YOUR TICKETS TO GET THE GOOD SEATS!

HURRY HURRY CALL YOUR FRIENDS DOWN AS WELL!!!!!!!!!

1ST OCTOBER 2011,8PM AT UCC HALL!

SEE YOU THERE!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!!

Much love.

O hai. So here's where I story tell. JELAJAH INDONESIA WAS A SUCCESS,ALHAMDULILLAH. So here goes (albeit a one week delay in updates)

Bali

SO OHAI BALI. We met again for the 2nd time. And it was love again,for the 2nd time. Just that this time round,more thrill big thanks to the water sports we did. Parasailing (second try weehoo), banana boat (second time but more thrill 'cause it capsized! together with Sha who cried during the first fall hahahaha), flying fish (hoyeah at last!), big mable (thrill gila beb) AND AND AND GUESS WHAT! WE FREAKING DID SCUBA DIVING! In Bali, no need for license to scuba dive yo! Damn,it was so fun I don't mind doing it again! In fact I WANT TO SCUBA DIVE AGAIN! Feeding the cute little fishes (i met Nemo!) and touching the coral reefs was really an experience! Plus, we did water rafting tooooooo! subhanallah the view and the scenery we passed by along Ayung River was pretty gorgeous. Really. The waterfall, the landscape...... Hell no way can you see those in Singapore. Urban. Rafting went smoothly,ladies didn't do much hahaha poor instructor was rowing alone 80% of the time. that said, the 2 hour rafting journey was nice!

Besides that,we did pretty much the same ole' thing. Lots of scenery watching,shopping,visiting our favourite Kuta Beach (with SUNSET this time!!!), wandering alone at Discovery Mall and Tanah Lot (scenery win,hands down)....and Dreamland this time! Bali has really pretty beaches i tell you! A little too perfect. But yessssssss that explains the pretty pictures of us in these places in Bali hehe. And oh. Our very special dinz dinz at Jimbaran! By the beach dinner with the nicest jagung bakar there. Although kena ketuk like mad. Never mind,relakan saja. Experience beb,experience. (another ketuk experience is the Spa massage. Gila punya. Obviously can get cheaper by the streets sia tsk takpe)

The thing i miss the most? The 4 girls spending time playing monodeal EVERY NIGHT before going to bed in the hotel. Yes every night! Doing silly things to each other (ie snapping photos of one another sleeping-a trademark throughout the jelajah LULZ) and getting to know our weird sleeping patterns,etc. Still love yallz the same k beb haha.

And yes of course. Can't deny how sad we were to leave Bali. ): Thank you Cindy & Abang Alex.

Bandung

Domestic flight to Bandung from Bali. I really owe this to Tante Dewi who was so kind to let us have freedom on our own thus letting the driver to bring us around without her following. Driver for the 2 days was.......errrr he gave me (okay in fact the 4 of us) the creeps! Shiz la i know we pretty girls travel on our own but please eh know your limits. Forget that,in Bandung we covered Kawah Putih, Tangkuban Perahu, Pasar Baru (hehehe hi friends we so need to shop here again kan), Paris Van Java (where I got the awezum CDs at Duta Suara! and where we spent some girls time together,exploring the whole mall. LIKE!) and also visiting the factory outlets along the streets. The next morning, experienced the no car day along the streets of Dago. Road was closed just for pedestrians and cyclists (fixies i should say,heh) and where the street musicians take control,we food fest all the way. Got our Kartika Sari & Amanda brownies (yummehzzzz). I really really like the street musicians scene in Bandung (and Jakarta)! Busking but more interesting and happening :D

Our last night was spent with Tante dewi and her daughter (and family). Dinner at a Bakso stall. Dang the nicest bakso mee i've ever tasted. The most original too. Sedap gilaaaaaa ya allah. Haha. Back home,packed for Jakarta the next day. Thank You tante Dewi for her hospitality. Can't thank her enough for her kindnesss and all. Seriously. (:

Pitstop before Jakarta was Taman Safari near Bogor. New (and much much much better) driver to bring us around. Such a nice person la i swear! So it was a day at the zoo....Pictures with a cub (a baby lion),orang utan (cuteness! gahhhh),elephant and some other animals. Relived our childhood moment. Okay la tu kan. Haha. But still...BEST OI.

Jakarta

3 hours journey from Bandung and we were welcomed by Kak Novi and Mum at Taman Mini Square. A bit awkward at first 'cause we've not met for soooooo long hehe. Kak Novi drove us along (together with her second baby boy, Fathi!) Fathi was the main attraction basically. Every one couldn't stop pinching his cheeks and carrying him and playing around with him haha. So anyway first day it was just resting since we reached Jkt at night. Next morning was Taman Mini, Mangga Dua and PGC after that. Since we've not much time in Jkt there's not much shopping time so no Tanah Abang this time. >: And oh. As if the machet in Bandung was not enough, we were accompanied by Jkt's machet too the whole time! bad timing la,ha ha. S'okay...we learn. [:

The next & last day was...........Dufan at Ancol! SEXCITINGGGGGGG! Especially since we were left on our own to wander around so yeahhhhh rides after rides! But the queue was damn long -__- Anak anak pada liburan semua nya aduh. Tapi it's okay sih. And oh. I finally took a ride on the HALILINTAR!!!! (the last time i went brother was a scaredy cat to try so it affected me and so i became another scaredy cat ha ha ha) Twas a very short ride but the moment it turned 360 i could feel my heart beating super fast lulz i felt kental after that. -__- Another ride worth mention is of course the TORNADO!!!!! (the last time i went i was still a scaredy cat but now I've got a brave friend Atiq!) That,by far,is the craziest ride I've been on and I'm not even kidding! That thing goes up,spins,stays in the air (with half the people facing the ground),goes higher,spins 360 thrice,stays in the air,spins again,goes down,goes up again....... I WAS SCREAMING FOR MY LIFE UP THERE (except once when it does its spinning thing cause i was too shock and speechless to do so hahaha) But good job la i was actually proud i managed to did that! HAH. But the most fun ride was bumper car. First timer,there's always a selenge moment (like not stepping on the pedal to make it move and was stuck at the same position for 30 seconds lol) After the adventures at Dufan, lepak-ed at Starbucks while waiting for Kak Novi to fetch us. I think Starbucks staffs are generally friendly i like! :D

[Sidetrack: Throughout the trip,tourists from China,as assumed,were so eager to snap pictures with us. Perhaps we looked like Indons? Haha. One at Tanah Lot another at Tangkuban Perahu. Takpe,we understand. Negeri diorang kan satu bangsa jer. lol. And their "tsank you,tsank you" was uhm...epic.]

And then. Before we knew it. We were at Jkt's airport. Spent some time with Kak novi before boarding in. Played for the last time with Fathi and Keisha (ohmy the girl has grown up! the last time she was as small as 6 months Fathi!) Cuteness. Then................we were already in the plane. Which was delayed like nobody's business and staffs didn't even bother making any announcements,left us like fools waiting like that. Even in the plane,was made like a fool because there was double booking with the seats and so our seating arrangement was screwed up. Nice lah kan. Lucky i still get to sit with Liy. Macam macam cobaan la kalau nak balik Kampung nih.

Singapore

Atiq's luggage went another route. Pegi South Africa agaknya. We all left with our luggages except hers. (with mine missing arif's caps which I kept inside my luggage-bodoh punya orang,takde benda lain pe nak godeh beg orang. Hidup tak berkat). Panic moment #1. Thank god it arrived home the next day.

With that,I end my Jelajah Indon story. It was nothing but memorable. The company,what can I say. The best i could ever ask for. Thank you girls for making the trip possible. Thank you for looking out for one another. Thank you for everything! *group hug*

Pictures? Too many! haha. Click on the following links tsank you!

BALI

BANDUNG

TAMAN SAFARI

JAKARTA

I leave you with this then. Tsank you.

Good morning. 710am singapore time. Haha. So unlike me to be up & awake at this time on a Sunday. All for the sake of NUSMS Amazing Race -___- (wish us luck please,we really don't wanna be the last team to arrive)

So,i'm back after a month to..........rant and rant and rant. I love long rants at onsugar. (:
Latest updates so far: Avril's concert,TPJC's 25th Anniversary,Karok Sesh for a stress reliever,JB trip (!!!!!) & uhm a 22 year old niece's wedding.

(It's raining heavily as I write. Brings out the laziness in me to get out of the house bleargh)

First thing first, if you must know Reeta the cousing & I went for AVRIL LAVIGNE'S BLACK STAR TOUR AT SINGAPORE INDOOR STADIUM YOZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZZ! 9TH MAY 2011 AND I DIDN'T REGRET PURCHASING THE CAT1 TIX FOR $175!!!!! Though we didn't get upclose like 2-3 m away from her (NO WE DID NOT ):) It was still worth the view. My girl was so rocking the stage! Been a fan since 13 and of course the time has come i shouldn't waste it like how i did in 2008. I should be on stage ah please,cos i remembered every single song she sang okay! HA HA HA. OH plus. I got to meet AG that night too! What a coincidence. And omg that guy got to meet Avril please!!!!!!! haih. Lucky man. That was a night to remember,really.

Next. Okay so Cikgu Ros invited us to attend the college's high-tea. And so we did. It was more of minding our own business at our cosy little table no.14,taking pictures of people (by that I mean of ourselves). The pioneer batch was the one who "took control" of the event haha sort of. But I do understand. Quite nostalgic for them I suppose. Was nice seeing friends and teachers I've not met for quite some time (though a pity Cikgu Rabiah couldnt  make it sigh susah la orang jb ni haha) Especially our civics tutor! As much of an annoyance (in a good way) he is, OF COURSE LAH WE MISS HIM KAN.

So anyway I realised the 2 years spent in TPJC was at least memorable,in one way or another. Nightmare,hell,prison...those are what I used to describe college. But there's always the other side of it that makes me happy whenever I think of it again. MCS,Clique 6ix,Sha & Zimah & all the happy pills I met along the way. No more than blessed. Alhamdulillah. Bittersweet is such an apt vocabulary to describe my tpjc experience. (:

Moving on, We have just embarked on our first JB trip ever. I mean not literally first trip to JB but first with the girls only. Entered JB by hitching a ride from Izza's dad's car and then going home by bus. (Long story how we managed to find our way back to homeland though,haha) Anyway,City Square it was to catch Nur Kasih the Movie. Such a really nice,sayu movie & I must say it somehow reminded me to treasure my family & beloved ones more. That said,I thought I still the prefer the drama series. BUT BUT BUT BUT. I have to mention this. IMMATURED SCHOOL KIDDOS/TEENAGERS SHOULD NEVER WATCH SAD STORIES LIKE NUR KASIH IN THE CINEMA 'CAUSE ALL THEY DO WHILE WATCHING IS GIVE UNNECESSARY COMMENTS AND THEN GIGGLE AMONG THEMSELVES THINKING IT'S FRIKIN FUNNY WHEN IT'S CLEARLY NOT. WHILE PEOPLE ARE TRYING TO FEEL THE EMOTIONS AND FLOW OF THE STORY,ALL THEY DO IS MAKE STUPID IMMATURED COMMENTS WHEN ALL THEY NEED TO DO IS JUST SHUT YOUR FREAKING TRAP YOU MOFOS!!!!!!!!!!!

I definitely had a bad experience at my seat in the cinema with this kinda people. I was supposed to cry (no?) but how was I supposed to with these disturbances siolzzzzzzz. Stupiak.

Okay skip that. We had our own food hunt there too,so all we shopped for over there was food (and a couple of rings hehehe) Back home around 10/11-ish. Dead beat but allz goooooooooooooood i actually love our first trip,made me feel so independent ha ha.

Just yesterday,my 22 year old niece got hitched. I must say a pretty young age to get married,no? But well....it knows no limit so Imma shut my trap. It was yet another maternal family gathering at the wedding too. For once,I'm not the eldest among the rest (and i don't get called 'kakak' by everyone haha) and all the pretty big cousins were the usual kecoh clan,so what dyou expect it was a whole lot of laughing my ass out yesterday. And as much as I know how imperfect/broken the maternal family is,it's always heartwarming to us gather at gatherings like this.

We all make mistakes in life but there's always room for taubat and if there's a will to become a better person,I'm sure you'll overcome all odds to be one. And I still believe we should not judge people based on how they dress themselves,how they look like,whether they have tattoos and piercings or not, whether they have striking coloured hair,fat short yadda yadda. What lies beyond that matters more I guess. Learn to accept people for who they are before deciding whether to hate them or not. Still, hate is too strong a word and I don't think we should even hate anyone.

There I've said it. With pictures included.

Time check: 7.41am. Getting ready for Amazing Race. But before that.....I'm taking a dump first. To the toilet I go.

And so it's the 2nd day of the 3 months freedom! THANK YOU YEAR 1 FOR THE BITTERSWEET MEMORIES (year 1 only,say until like want to graduate like that hahaha) No more freshie next sem hehehe.

ANYWAY. Been 3 months since i've ranted here. Actually. I don't see the point of keeping this since i've had my beloved tumblr (sorry bias but i really love tumblr kkkk) As it is, I'm trying to enjoy my couch potato days before i travel and search for jobs. Sigh. If money drops from the sky, i wouldn't even bother to work okay. SERIOUS BEB.

AND SO. So much has happened over the span of 3 months (step happening only haha)

Among the events include NUSMS Night Cycling, Sunday Afternoon Jam 20th March (i'll NEVER forget this la seriously. all for the love of HUJAN hehe), Sha's awesome 20th K-Celebration,Satu Family Wrap Up Party, Mothers' Day Advanced Celebration, Ilsa Tari Exco and SG Elections 2011, among others. Eventful indeed huh. I call it bliss. I should be thankful to be blessed with these people/happenings in my life, albeit all the imperfections.

And so yesterday, being the last day of rally, the father and I went down to Serangoon for WP rally. Been watching rallies via YouTube but thought that I should at least make a trip down to watch one of their rallies. Glad i did for i managed to catch Pritam Singh's speech live. Got to give it to the man who delivers his speeches with humour, influence and most importantly SUBSTANCE. Favourite speaker! Okay since I can't vote yet, i shall stop here. The elections have somewhat caused a stir in the country. Politics is so....political! Anyway twas a very good experience. For the first time i felt more pride reciting the pledge led by Pritam Singh than during the National Day Parade haha.

K next. The search for job. Don't wanna depend on my savings cause if i do i'll be left with a pathetic sum but then againnnnnn MONEY Y U NO DROP FROM SKY?!!!!!!!!!!! A job is a NEED not  a WANT. Cause i''ve to fund the Bali-Bandung-Jakarta trip and my daily expenses (the thought of burdening the parents with financial supply is so...painful?) and my indulgence of many things i wanna do over the course of 3 months. And still considering of enrolling for driving license. HALP. I wanna do as many things I can/want this semester break. Have always believed that you live life ONCE so do what you wanna do before it's too late. hehe. (one of which is attending gigs and concerts and plays wheeee i likesz)

When I reach Bandung/Jakarta please remind me to grab as many CDs as possible from their CD stores of those worth listening. I'm sure they've got a lot (and i mean A LOT) of talented musicians in Indo so yessss i would wanna take a listen too! Plus, their albums cost wayyyy cheaper than in SG! Okay i officially can't wait for the trip already! <:

I'd do anything to get to travel all over the world please. Backpacking. Road trip. Yes. Don't forget I'm ambitious like that.

Okay i don't know how to continue already. Writer's block.(RIGHT!) Seemed like a lengthy cum wordy entry already,no? Time for pictures!

ps. Feels weird but I definitely miss writing long entries like this! Like a totally narrative/descriptive rant woohoo i still have the zest for blogging! KTHANKSBYENOTIMPORTANTALSOIKNOW.

OKAY I NEED MORE K-SESSIONS.

Hey ho folks (k shall get straight to my point)

Good morning and I'm just wasting time,waiting to get ready for school. Seems like I'm a little early today. Must be the before midnight bedtime (Y) Hope that stays as a habit. I treasure sleep more than anything else ok!

Anyway I'm being a little sentimental this morning. The above pictures probably say it all. SF2 was one of the most memorable thing that happened in 2010 and more than just the moneh (no we didn't join this merely for the buckaroos),I have to say the friends are pretty much awesome! And and the crews too. That's more or less one of the reasons I felt quite sad during our elimination. OK YADDA YADDA SKIIIIIIP THIS.

MY POINT IS. I MISS DEKECOHRABLES. I MISS THE FOUR OF US! I MISS US LAUGHING LIKE THERE'S NO TMR EVEN WHEN WE WERE AT THE LOSING END & BEING AS GAY AS EVAAAAAA I RINDUUUUUUU ):

Hi,I was reading through my archives. I was smiling. Kinda cheered me up a little. (I even found a photo of me & Papa Is). Okay anyway let's go.

Today I felt like a lonely soldier girl. The loneliest I felt thus far. With nobody to date,no mood for 'me' time at Starbucks and with the parents ignoring my offer to catch a movie (which i've been asking to watch as a family for so so so so goddamn long). For a moment i thought i've had no friends in the world. Dramatic much. And I don't even know why I cried so bad just now, in the midst of my hunger pangs. I just did,for reasons I know not of. ): I don't get this sadness either. Sucks to be me. And so,the parents left to fetch the goddamn irritating brother at his friend's school concert without me. She asked,but i just couldn't bother to answer. I really wanted a nice dinner tonight but somehow lost the appetite when they didn't even bother to. And i don't even know why i got so affected. UGH. HORMONES? Thought I've grown past it already,no? Whatever,this sucks. A lot. WHY OH WHY I WISH THE PEOPLE AT HOME COULD READ MY MIND. Today is such a redundant day i swear _|_

anyway,since I'm still at this,i might as well update what i've been up to these days (not that people even bother to read up but hell who cares). Esplanade youth volunteer at Hougang care centre (aka IMH-affiliated) and Pertapis Girls. For the wishing sphere project. New experience,nice peers. A day well-spent as well. Besides busy preparing for K2K in school and sending off Fuzz to Laos on Wednesday,my remaining days have been mundane. "Imprisoned" in my home watching tv,catching up on dramas have been the daily routine. Even the brother has been going out more often than me. Yeah tell me about it. I haven't even caught any movies ever since the end of final exams. TOLD YA,SUCKS TO BE ME. -.-

And i think i've had enough of ranting. This actually feels much better. Reminds me of the reason for the existence of this blog. And all the crying has made me sleepy.

I'm done.

HAPPY 50TH BIRTHDAY PAPA IS. I REALLY WISH YOU WERE STILL AROUND. I WOULD'VE STILL BE YOUR LITTLE PRINCESS. I MISS YOU SO MUCH I DON'T KNOW HOW ELSE TO EXPRESS THIS. )': I LOVE YOU TO INFINITY.

LOVE,NURUL.